THE QUESTION:

As per usual, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and perhaps it is because I will be graduating soon from university without aspirations or even a quarter of my creative love for what I once strove since even middle school; however, I wasn't always like that and I think I know a grandiose reason as to why I am currently like that:

I hold my creative efforts very dearly to me, but not all of the educators I have trusted and turned to for growth have been a positive influence on my life and for what I once strove, even though they were once such prominent figures. Molders of shape-able clay whose hands I trusted.

At the moment, there are only two educators that I can really say have annihalated my creative passions with their own hands, two educators I actually cared about and felt were mentors for various aspects of life: not just music and creative writing (second resulted in a slew of mistrust of other professors I couldn't turn to as I once had).

So I suppose the question is WHY do educators so easily harm their students' aspirations once the students trust them?

NINA WRITES:

Someone once told me it was because the educator didn't like my potential with music composition, creative writing, and art and perhaps jealousy became involved. Someone else once told me that it was because educators are still employees who only care about themselves and their paychecks. Someone else once told me that educators choose to teach when what they perhaps really wanted to do fell through/didn't pay enough. And someone once told me it was because the educator was too selfish to care any longer.

Or maybe it's because for my entire life, I have looked up to educators and appreciated the power of molding they have. Or maybe it's because I have just gone to the wrong educators looking for guidance and for someone to show genuine care (or they express such only in the beginning). Or maybe it's because the profession is a joke after one gets tenure (the before and after with some is painfully obvious).

 

I'm not sure which answer is correct or even if there is a correct answer, for each educator is different and has his or her own motives behind ruining a students' much-sought-after passions. Perhaps it is unintentional and perhaps it is intentional.

 Sadly, I'm not sure which ones are the "good ones" who are there for the right reasons because those who have hurt me were so greatly spoken about and appreciated. 

But I'm certain there are those in the profession who would professionally and kindly show me the opposite.

 

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INQUIRIES:

Thoughts on this blog will be appreciated, though I do realize most will comment on my Facebook status update.

xN

Hello

So this is round two for me in regards to blogging. My prior blog, xxJessicaSays, turned into far too deep of a reflection of my time as an English major at my university that I lost my original reason for blogging.

But as people know, I like to express my opinion, so I'm giving this a shot again under one of my middle names.

If you have an issue with anything I write, please express why professionally. 
Thank you,

x Nina  

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